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The summers of ‘90s

2010-06-27T22:28:00.000-07:00

Something’s in life never change. When we were in school (it’s been a decade, imagine!!) we used to crib about going to school. The thought process went like this- “what the heck, when will this bloody school end. When will we go to college and enjoy life”. When we graduated to college, we were complaining again. This time the thinking went-“When will I start working and earn some money. Then I would not have to survive on the meagre pocket money. I will have a BLAST when I start earning”. I can tell you my experiences and I guess most will agree, those who don’t are lucky; Now that I have finally started working and earning money, I am thinking-“when will these dreadful days of slogging your ass off end. Getting up in the freaking morning, hurrying to catch the 7:44 fast local, praying that you get an auto rickshaw, reaching office puffing and panting. And then thinking…. I HATE my job”. I really do.
Now when I look back, those school days were awesome. Living in a protected world, meeting friends, those lunch breaks, hogging all the food before anyone else could lay there hands on it. Going back home, go out to play with building/colony friends. Have dinner, watch Doordarshan (remember chitrahaar and super hit muqabla with Krittika Desai!!), go off to sleep. That was awesome. Not a care in the world.
The college days were also awesome. Bunking classes, proxy attendances, going out for movies on shoestring budgets, studying all nights before exams have a charm which cannot be matched.
And now our professional lives. Don’t know, maybe some years down the line, we will look at these days as also good. When we have bigger problems taking up our time. Makes me think about the quote-“Sometimes the road travelled turns out to be more beautiful than the destination reached. Enjoy leading your life no matter what it turns out.” I seriously think we waste a lot of our times complaining and not enjoying our lives. What happens is that we tend to look back on the years gone by and contemplating how much more we could have done and enjoyed. So from now on let’s not crib about life and waste valuable time. I know I am telling this to myself more than anyone else. I don’t know how to end this post…

Lovely!!!!!

2008-11-29T02:50:00.000-08:00

Love is when you can't sleep at night because you can't stop thinking of them,

Love is when you can wake up and smile...about the dream you had last night..

Love is when you say everything with your silence and they understand it, and yet both act like nothing has happened,

Love is when you recollect each n every moment that you've spent with them,

Love is when you stare at the phone for hours waiting for that special call,

Love is when the only thing that makes you feel better is their smile,

Love is when every song reminds you of them,

Love is when you do anything to see them happy,

Love is when you're dying and the last thing you want to hear is their voice....!!!

Most Important....

What is love??

Those who don't know call it RESPONSIBILITY.

Those who play, call it a GAME.

Those who dont have it, call it DREAM.

Those who understands, call it LIFE.

Hope TH!$ Never Comes True!!!!!!!

2008-07-21T02:41:00.000-07:00

Its 8:15 a.m. and I stand here in the bus stop waiting for the office bus to arrive. I stand here in the same manner as I did a few years back waiting for my college bus. Little did I know then that things would change so much in 2 years; the sky under which I am standing seems to be looking at me and smiling... It is perhaps the only thing that has acted as a witness... Watching the transformation of a loud and bubbly person into a quiet professional.

I wouldn't blame the professionalism for the change though. It is destiny, or may be you could call it life. Yes Life, esoteric in the true sense, for one does not understand why you meet hundreds of people everyday, work with so many, and still remain lonely.

I am now in one of the corner seats in the bus, looking out of the window watching people trying to catch up with "life”... It's an hour’s journey and the only company that I generally have is the chatter of the RJ. I seldom notice the person sitting next to me, for its going to be yet another stranger or may be you could say another acquaintance.

It is annoying at times when the radio is switched off, not because I am cut off from the melody but because I would now be thrust with thoughts of the solitary journey ahead.

I can't help thinking about the short bus journeys to college ... well it's a paradox to call a distance of 30 KMs "short", but that is how it always seemed. A typical college day always begins in the bus with all the familiar faces; you look forward for all your friends to get in from the various stops, the reasonless giggles, the loud laughter that were stifled to avert the eyes of the lecturers and professors who would watch on us as if we were their prospective prey for the day ....well as I said it was a different life then.

The pleasant memories of college are in itself good enough to save me from the misery of the bus journey.
I notice that it is time for me to get down and flash my smile of acknowledgement to all the known strangers that I see as I approach my cubicle. A few of my colleagues greet me with their morning wishes and as always, we exchange our pleasantries. Discussions jump to the weekend plans and I wonder what I'd do over the weekend.
It would be just another day staring at the mobile, wishing it would ring and bring back some wonderful moments that are now missing in life or maybe the safer option would be to come to office, for it's my new founded asylum these days. A few years back, weekends or weekdays didn't matter to me, I was always busy. I always stood doubting the authenticity of the wall clock that seemed to be in running too fast to perceive its movement. Alas, now it seems as though my clock is suffering from some kind of paralytic attack.

There is a time in life, where one needs to go ahead, leaving behind your friends and carrying along only memories. You do make new friends, but then you never get the old close ones ... you do meet people who'd be so good to you that you could tell them anything and everything, but you do not find a person to whom you needn't say things ... friends who just know you.
Occasional calls from such friends, have been the only thing that I seem to look forward to ...However, I cant help but notice the uneasy pause that lingers around the conversation...A pause not because of the relationship, but because it is too short a duration to say everything, and of course you cannot completely rule out the paucity of words!

As I sip coffee from the ubiquitous coffee mug, watching the drops of rain, trickling down the tinted glass panes, veiling the scenic beauty outside, I tell myself, may be there will be a day when things will change, when life will offer a rewind, a recap of all the events and I just have to wait.
Capricious are the ways of life, for I know there would be many who'd be able to empathize with me, ironically, even the dear ones that I miss this moment, waiting perhaps...!!
And I keep on waiting......

P. S : Read it somewhere. Never want to relate with this.....

WHAT?????

2008-03-02T06:20:00.000-08:00

She-“Prashant, I have got engaged”.

Me-“WHAT????????”.

She- “Prashant, I have got engaged”.

Me-“WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!” again…

She-“hang on”, fiddles with her cell. “NOW, can you hear me????”.

Me-Too SHOCKED to say anything.

She-sounding wary, “Prashant I said I got engaged”.

Me-silence.

She-“you there?????"

Me-“yes”.

She-“you heard me????”.

Me-“yes, I did”.

She-“then for godsake say SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!!”.

Me-“When”. (I am KICKING myself).

She-“Wednesday.I thought you would congratulate me.”

Me-“ooooo yes, you kidding right??”

(what an ASS am I!!!!!)

And so one of my BEST friends broke the news of her engagement to me. As you would have guessed I behaved like a total JERK. I don’t know what happened. Come to think of it the first reaction after hearing about someone’s engagement is that you ask about the dude. I ROCK!! Anyways the “she” in question is Ms. Sweta(It’s Shweta without a H) Daluka, often known as Topi. Anyone who knows me would have heard the name from me quite often. She has an uncanny knack of finding ways to IRRITATE me and I in turn get pissed off with her quite often. I was just too shocked and numb to react in a different way. People who have met her can understand my predicament better. She is the typical girl-next-door girl who is always falling ill and is one trouble or the other. So, the idea of her getting married and been responsible is too much to digest. Every second day the cartoon network falls BIMAAR and you wonder whether she is BIMAAR or a BIMAARI…. :-)

So another one of my friend getting admitted in the institution called marriage. Majority of my female friends are already life-time members but the guys are yet to go that way. Thank god we have retained our sanity. So what is it about marriage? Suddenly the female’s life goes topsy turvy. What she does and how she behaves is determined whether the hubby would approve of it or not. The poor girl has to behave like goody two shoes 24X7. The mother-in-law takes out the dutiful bahu to be for endless rounds of shopping. The sister-in-laws behave in a very artificial manner and pretends as if the new bhabhi is their best friend (mentally they are thinking, shaadi ke baad dikhate hein, boss kaun hai). The father –in-law always has some words of wisdom ready. I am sure the guys have to go through the same painful experiences!!!!!
I realized it yesterday that the reason for my weird reaction was that I was scared of losing a friend. But I am sure I am wrong (just consoling myself!!!). Anyways, I hope from the bottom of my heart that she has a WONDERFULL married life. Her saas and nanad do not beat her up black and blue.:-)she is an AWESOME female and deserves the best. Three cheers for Topi:

HIP HIP HURRAY…

HIP HIP HURRAY…

HIP HIP HURRAY…

Topi ROCKS…….

Chow……

Here are a couple of good one liners i bumped into..

2008-01-10T21:31:00.000-08:00

•If a plug would not fit, would you socket?

•They say such nice things about people at their funerals that it makes me sad to realize that I am going to miss mine by just a few days.

•I never make mistakes. I thought I did once, but I was mistaken...

•I will kill to win the Nobel Prize for peace.

•Philosophy is questions that may never be answered. Religion is answers that may never be questioned.

•If at first you don't succeed skydiving is not for you....

•If atheism is a religion, then health is a disease!

•That’s a nice suit you’re wearing. Who went for the fitting?

•I am confused. No wait….. Maybe I am not..

•Here I am. Now what are your other two wishes?

•Rehab is for quitters..

•The top ten reasons I procrastinate:
1.

•He who laughs last thinks slowest....

•Sometimes I wake up grumpy, other times I let him sleep...

•When there's a will I want to be in it....

•Impotence-nature's way of saying "no hard feelings"....

•Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile away and you have their shoes.

•If you lend someone $20, and never see that person again, it was probably worth it.

•Guys have feelings too. But like...who cares?

•"What made you marry Daddy, Mummy?"
"So you’re beginning to wonder, too!"

Deep down inside me, I am a superficial person..

•“What is your age?” Asked the Judge “Remember you are under oath. “
“Twenty-one years and some months”, the woman answered.
“How many months?” the Judge persisted.
“One hundred and eight”.

Happy wala b’day to 2008

2007-12-31T23:53:00.001-08:00

Well, well, the day has arrived when we start writing ’08 in the year’s column. Another year gone by. Lemme try and recollect the single most important events in the respective months:

1st wicket-> January->the year started with an absolutely wild New Year party. It was crazy. Felt nice to see so many people enjoying themselves. My memory of this time last year is that of having time out. With the gang out in Pune, I had a quite New Year. Then, it was the pressure of the exams. The month just fizzed by.

2nd wicket->February-> remember this month for the trip to Shikharjee. It was damn good. Walking those 21 kms. was an experience (mind you, bare feet). It was BEAUTIFULL.

3rd wicket->March-> I went to a professional set up for the 2nd time in my life. It was my internship at ICICI. It was a big CULTURE shock (after Standard Chartered). It was BAD.

4th wicket->April-> one of the few times in my life I fell out with my friends. It was one of my best friends. Felt bad, real bad.

5th wicket->May-> the trauma continues. As usual the trend of b’day blues continued. It NEVER fails to happen. Ooooh, how could I forget, Tarkeshwar!!!! Went to meet Bhole Baba after 2 years and that too with the real close ones.

6th wicket->June->back to campus... It was a relief!!!!!

7th wicket->July-> started watching out for the placement season.

8th wicket->August-> the Virgo month. B’days galore!!! The movie bug HIT me.

9th wicket->September-> placements and exams on our heads... started to get on my nerves.

10th wicket-> October-> ADVENTITY :-)

Last man-> November-> LAZING around like an Elephant (is this right English????)

12th man-> December-> Faux paus. Don’ really no.

This is it. A highlights package of 2007.

Now for some of my ardent wishes in 2008:

1. India beats Australia down under.

2. Do well in Adventity.

3. Hope the company gives the bonus to people who have finished the Indian CFA (can’t study any more!!!)

4. Kick some ass at Adventity.

5. Sis’s problems take a turn for the better.

6. Gift the latest technologically advanced cell phone to my pyaree behnaa, Jhabs.

7. Sourav Ganguly retires on a high!!!

8. India does not give another chance to amazing Mr. Sehwag.

9. And the biggest. Cannot WAIT to have money in my hands and spending it. I have done the mental calculations. Only the actual implementation is left!!

Talk about spirit. A group of females in charge of cleaning up and all in the campus are sitting outside and having a BALL. I can hear their continuous chatter for the past hour. They seem to be having more fun then me. I am J. reminds me of the line from Ulysses, “Drink life to it’s lees”. Way to go.

Chow guys.

Teree maa kee @#%....

2007-12-27T00:35:00.000-08:00

Various people have various things to do when they wake up in the morning. Some like to pray, some like to pause and plan out there day, and there are some who make a DASH for the bathroom (chalo bulawa aaya hai, Mata ne bulaya hai). :-) Don’t ask me what I do!!! Anyways, for the past two days I have been awakened by the WONDERFUL voice of some cartoon network on the floor below. I assure it’s not a good feeling to hear someone shout Maach@#, Bh&%ch#@, the first thing in the morning. Lemme explain. India is playing Australia in the Boxing Day test match. Poor Anil Kumble had it yesterday. He got a truck full of abuses when he was not picking up wickets. When the POOR guy did get wickets he got a BARRAGE of them. On been asked why is he abusing Kumble after he had picked up a wicket, the gentleman told me, “Saale ch@@% ne pehle googly kyon nahin kee”. For the first time in my life I felt sorry for Kumble. He picks up a fiver and people still abuse him like crazy!!!!

The best comments came for our Bengal Tiger, Sourav Ganguly. Unfortunately, he is at the peak of his physical fitness. In the amount of time he can run to the boundary at MCG, H.D. Dave Gowda can have a nice little nap!!! Poor Ganguly. Even the Bongs don’t leave him.

This is the amazing environment in which we get to watch the cricket matches at the hostel. The guy on your left starts abusing Ganguly’s batting (which has been VERY IMPRESSIVE in recent times). The guy on your right turns out to be a Bengali (hence, by default a Ganguly fan!!). So the cartoon on your right starts abusing Yuvraj Singh, cause Mr. left is a Punjabi. This goes on for a good hour and when they are tired of abusing the players, they turn to each other. This never fails to happen. Imagine my plight, who wants nothing more than to STRANGLE those idiots and listen to the Ian Chappell’s commentary!!! I feel really sorry for myself.

Another amazing piece of cricketing knowledge was on display yesterday. On the first day of the match when Gilchrist was batting, this sportoon sitting in the front turns around and asks the guy behind. “ abe yaar is ch@%t ka naam kya hai, Katich hai naa”. (Poor Gilchrist!!!). On been told that he has identified the wrong player, the sportoon gets into a rage and shouts “ Teree maa kee…..”.

Here we go again.

Chow guys.

A blunder and a Teerth Yatra-all paaps washed away!!

2007-12-16T00:02:00.001-08:00

14th December, 2007 was a big day for IBS, Hyderabad. Our campus was blessed with the presence of Mr. Arun Choudhary. Wondering who the hell is he??? I don’t blame you. It was actually Mr.Arun Shourie who had enlightened us. The host for the afternoon introduced him as Mr.Arun Choudhary!!! That has to be the mother of all blunders. I guess the poor guy lost it and was a nervous wreck thereafter. Anyways, the victim to the whole thing very coolly ignored the blunder. Must say, Mr. Shourie was AWESOME. He got his point across to us with a good dose of sense of humor thrown in. The whole speech was just too good. It was a damn good experience and we figured we need more of these sort of guest lectures. The session gave me access to a whole new point of view about our society which I never thought existed.

After the session and during lunch, I was TOLD that we are going to the temple of Chilkur Balajee( I hope I have spelt that write!!). The temple is quite famous in Hyderabad and has a big fan following. We were contemplating ways to reach the temple which is around 15-16 km. from the campus and takes around an hour and a half to reach. But as Shahruk Khan said, “jab tum kuchh sachhe dil se chahte ho, to poorie kaynath tumhe us se milane mein jut jatee hai”. :-) We saw an Indica standing on our campus gates. The driver, ever willing to make a quick buck approached us. After a bit of bargaining we convinced him to take us to the temple and back again to civilization for a very nominal amount. He told us that his was a private cab and he was idle because his hirer had gone off with someone else. I got the impression, God was with us. In an Indica, with sexy roads we covered good ground and lo and behold we were at the temple in 20 min.!!! The road was good and reminded us of rural India with all its fields and small towns and villages.

Even at the temple we were LUCKY. The normally crowded temple was empty and we were in and out in 15-20 min. Of this time the major time was taken up by us trying to break the coconuts!!! After our darshan, we noticed that the crowd was warming up and there was a line. GOD IS GREAT. We returned to civilization with a brief amrood break. The driver was kind enough to drop us at the army temple. GOD BLESS HIS KIDS. We had a wonderful time at the beautiful, well maintained and serene temple. By now I was starting to feel both thirsty and hungry and was belching with the taste of amrood still in my mouth (Surd & Tamasha made me eat their portion also!!). Now, we were again contemplating how to return to the campus when lady luck smiled on us again and we saw the college bus returning to the campus. To top off our Teerth Yatra we got off at the temple near our campus and had darshan there too. You must be wondering the reason for our teerth yatra. Well, it so happens that all of us are FINALLY placed. Happy days are here again.

In the evening I got the shock of my life when I started watching the movie-“The Inside Man”. The movie’s casting had the background score as Chaiyya Chaiyya(Remember Mallaika in it!!). After ages I heard that track. I also got a call from two of my closest friends, Coffee and Topi. Felt nice catching up with them. All in all I had one of my better days at the B-school.

Right now me sitting in a FRM lecture. It is very FRUSTRATING. The cartoon students are eating the poor professor’s head with really DUMB & STUPID questions. They are asking him how to solve the algebraic equation instead of trying to understand the concept of Binomial Options pricing. IDIOTS of the highest order!!
Chow guys….

When friends become foes and I become Daku Mangal Singh!!

2007-11-23T21:46:00.000-08:00

A very interesting thing is happening to me and around me. People who were my friends and on whom I could rely and even boast that they are friends for life are turning over a new leaf. Things have changed so much that we can not even talk to each other properly. The other person has to make an effort to keep out the anger/hatred from his voice and face. We are one stage away from been sworn enemies. The logical question to be asked now is what has led to this situation. Good question. I swear, I don’t know!! Very surprising cause they say it takes two to tango and I am one of the parties involved. But, I am as lost as you are. I am not for even once saying that I am absolutely innocent. Nope. I might have done or said something to offend the other person. But the reaction been triggered is way put of proportions. There is a difference between been angry or pissed off with someone and hating someone. What bothers me is that the other party positively hates me. The person cannot even hide the hatred from his face. Hate is a very strong emotion. Even now, I do not hate the person. But BLOODY HELL, I am pissed. A line has to be drawn and someone has to make people realize that they are going overboard. Enough is enough. I do not want to go into that mode but I am been forced into it. I am not going to keep on ignoring crap.

The worrying thing is that this seems to be happening quite frequently. This is not a good sign. There is a set of people on the campus with whom I am at loggerheads. I know I should not be bothered with all this. But I have never had this sort of panga before. I used to avoid trouble in any form. I still try and do it. I guess what has changed is that now I am not willing to be pushed around. On certain things I have to take a stance and I have. Maybe that puts off people. You never know. If you find the answers then please please enlighten me. If there is something majorly wrong with me and I am overlooking it, then again tell me. Till that time Daku Mangal Singh would roam around in the Chambal ki ghatee.
Chow guys.

Thank you!!

2007-11-19T07:25:00.000-08:00

The new look on my blog is courtesy Ms. Amisha Garg. She was nice enough to spend he time over the interior decoration of my blog. The result is for everyone to see. It does look REALLY REALLY NICE. Thanks a ton Ms. Garg. The cheapster that I am, I have not thanked her properly. The poor female thought I would call her up and thank her but me been me did the opposite. I told her that it’s not looking that great and it’s decent. I agree it was really cheap on my part. Sorry and thanks a ton Amisha. Main tumhara gunehgaar hoon. :)

Yesterday I got a very pleasant surprise when I opened my orkut. Out of the blue Pip had written me a really nice testimonial. It felt nice. Him and me have been really AWESOME friends since our college days and I know it’s gonna stay this way. Thanks dude.

As you can see me in a very thankful mood. Thanks to EVERYONE. :)
Chow guys.

Savage Garden- truly madly deeply

2007-10-25T08:44:00.000-07:00

I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful 'cos I'm counting on A new beginning.
A reason for living. A deeper meaning.
I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
Until the sky falls down on me...
And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish send it to heaven then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy for all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of..
The highest power. In lonely hours. The tears devour you..
I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me..
(BRIDGE)
Oh can't you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes 'cos it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come...

I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope I'll be your love be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do...
(CHORUS)
[repeat until fade]
I want to stand with you on a mountain....

Bryan Adams-Please forgive me.

2007-10-25T08:41:00.000-07:00

Still feels like our first night together,
Feels like the first kiss, it's gettin' better baby
No one can better this...
Still holdin' on, you're still the one
First time our eyes met, same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger, wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on...
So if you're feelin' lonely don't
you're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good
so if I love ya a little more than I should
Please forgive me, I know not what I do...
...I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through...
...if I need ya like I do
Please believe me every word I say is true...
...our best times are together...
...touch, still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough...
Still holdin' on, still number one
I remember the smell of your skin...everything
...all your moves...you, yeah!
...the nights ya know I still do...

...One thing I'm sure of is the way we make love
And one thing I depend on is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'...
...Never leave me I don't know what I'd do...

Bryan Adams-Have you ever really loved a women

2007-10-25T08:29:00.000-07:00

To really love a woman ,
To understand her - you gotta know her deep inside
Hear every thought - see every dream
N' give her wings - when she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms
Ya know ya really love a woman

When you love a woman you tell her
that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
Cuz she needs somebody to tell her
that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
- really really ever loved a woman?

To really love a woman
Let her hold you -
til ya know how she needs to be touched
You've gotta breathe her - really taste her
Til you can feel her in your blood
N' when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
Ya know ya really love a woman

When you love a woman
you tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
Cuz she needs somebody to tell her
that you'll always be together
So tell me have you ever really -
really really ever loved a woman?

You got to give her some faith - hold her tight
A little tenderness - gotta treat her right
She will be there for you, takin' good care of you
Ya really gotta love your woman...

SAVAGE GARDEN – I KNEW I LOVED YOU

2007-10-25T08:21:00.000-07:00

Maybe it's intuition
But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes
I see my future in an instant
And there it goes
I think I've found my best friend
I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

There's just no rhyme or reason
Only this sense of completion
And in your eyes
I see the missing pieces
I'm searching for
I think I've found my way home

I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I've found you

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

One down, two to go..

2007-10-19T06:40:00.000-07:00

One down bole to the one and only Mr. A.M.Dattani. Yes, Mr.Dattani joined the elite group of students at IBS, Hyderabad who have already had the privilege of been placed. He has taken the first step towards creating a gap between the Have’s and the Have-not's. For the record, Mr.Dattani got placed into the Taj Group. So happy were they with Dattu that they told the place comm. guys that Dattu is tailor made for this job. And, so stumped were they that even their top brass could not provide answers to Dattu’s well researched questions. Way to go dude!!!

Two to go bole to Bhanjee and Tamisha. Two horses from the contrasting stables of Marketing and Finance. :-) As they say, save the best for the last. So hang on guys, the best profile/pay from the gang is coming from either of these two horses. Take my advise and bet big on them. Both are lambee race kee ghodees… :-) :-) Hard to predict who’s gonna win the race. Both are winners (a tie-breaker, a bookies dream!!). So start coughing up some cash and place your bets. Even I might indulge in some insider trading. Chow guys.

Nahin laga record pe daag!!!

2007-10-19T01:34:00.000-07:00

I am very very HAPPY. I am on top of the world. I am so ECSTATIC. My joy knows no bounds. I wanna jump from the top floor. Me on cloud number nine. Curious???? Wanna know the reason behind my happiness???? So, brace yourself. My happiness stems from the fact that one of my long standing (century old) record is still intact. It takes time to create a record and reputation. Thank god my good work of all theses years did not go waste. The record I am so PROUD of is- “yours truly watching the most AMAZINGLY SCREWED UP movies in theaters”. I added a seven star to my record by watching “Laaga Chunari me daag” in a theater. The movie lived up to all the reviews proclaiming it to be a DISASTER!!! In fact it went a step further. It was Hurricane Katrina and Tsunami rolled into one!!It also managed to showcase brilliant actors like Jaya Bachhan, and Anupam Kher overacting. Rani Mukherjee is so damn CRAPPY in the movie that you wanna tear your hair apart!!! The storytelling follows the O’Henry pattern. So much so, that you can predict whats gonna happen in the next 2 minutes of the movie, at any given point in time!!! Very honestly, such CRAP was not expected from Mr. Pradeep Sarkar after “Parineeta”.

The only saving grace in the whole experience was the theater itself, “Sensation”. As the name suggests, the seats were ABSOLUTELY SENSATIONAL. In fact, they were not even seats, there were COUCHES. These couches were DIVINE and DAMN COMFORTABLE. You could literally sleep on these. (not a bad option, given the circumstances).

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you that the movie was part of a treat been given by my good friend Varsha. I guess it was her birthday treat (or was it her placement treat??). BALLS!!! What matters is that my record is still intact!!! I can hardly wait for the next BIG SCREWED UP BLOCKBUSTER movie to hit the theaters. Till then, chow guys.

P.S: I also managed to see “Hannibal Rising”, another thoroughly DISGUSTING and GROSS movie in a theater last week. Yeah baby. :-)

AM I HAPPY!!!

2007-10-15T07:33:00.000-07:00

I should have written this a long time ago, but I was too busy watching movies, left, right and center, and reading THE AFGAN, by Fredrick Forsyth (awesome book). But it’s better late than never. Yours truly got a job in ADVENTITY. It was a feeling of RELIEF that took over me. It took a lot of time sinking in but YEAH BABY, I GOT PLACED and BLOODY HELL I ROCK... It was a day of mixed feelings and contrasting emotions.

The whole process started on Friday (5th October) morning. The company gave a PPT which was impressive. After that they conducted a written test. The quality of the test was really good with the questions having a good mixture of been tricky, tough and simple. After that the next step was short listing followed by an interview. I don’t know why but I had at a sub-conscious level targeted the company and was somehow quietly confident that I would make it. So, the day started with me taking out my favorite shirt, which I guess I had saved for that day. Before leaving my room in the morning I had already tried out various ties which would go with that shirt. Surprising, cause the interview, if I reached there was supposed to be conducted in the evening or next day. After sitting for the PPT, I thought to myself that this is a good company with a more than decent profile and a nice pay. Basically, I am trying to say I wanted to be a part of it.

Then, we gave the written test which was very professionally conducted. After giving the test I knew I had a decent chance to make it to the interview stage. But given my previous track record of company’s short listing me, one part of me was SCARED. Then, came the first part of the waiting. In the mean time I caught a short nap and also browsed through my projects. Then we went down and waited for the list to come out. The placement reps told us it’s gonna take maximum half an hour. But, after waiting for an hour and a half, I had enough and came back to my room. Pokee was there with me and after coming up we went and sat on the balcony with at terrific view. We started talking. Issues which had been ignored came up. We spent a good half an hour discussing some very negative topics. (Not an ideal preparation for the interview!!)

Anyways around seven I got a call from Bhanjee telling me that I had been short-listed and the interview would start off in half an hour. Rushed back to my room. The preparation of the morning came in handy and I was ready in 10 min. and within 15 min. I was down, all set to give an interview. While going down I got 2 WONDER FULL best of luck messages from Amisha and Bhanjee. It really felt nice. I guess they wanted me to crack it as badly as I myself wanted do. (Thanks a ton gals!!). Anyways, by another stroke of luck my interview was scheduled to be the 2nd with my panelist. While waiting outside after the first guy went in all sorts of thoughts came into my mind. Firstly, I realized how BADLY I wanted to call up home and tell them that I had been placed. I knew it would make them very happy. After that I don’t know why the picture of my grandfather came into my mind. I was perplexed because this normally does not happen. Now, I know and believe that he was watching me from up there. Then I got to the serious business of the interview. While standing outside I realized how inadequate my preparation was!!! Anyways I am a firm believer that SPONTANEITY ROCKS. So I went for my interview. It was a very technical affair and when I came out I had no idea how I had fared. I was sure I had not answered wrongly. But the facial expressions of the panelist gave nothing away. After that I was constantly reviewing the interview in my head and trying to figure out whether I had screwed up or not.

Spoke at my place but did not tell them anything. Wanted to talk to Sis but it was quite late in the night. In the night, Mr. Pip called up and felt a lot better after talking to him. The next day was a big DRAG with nothing to do except wait. Somehow managed to wait till the evening. Around 6:15 news came that results are expected any moment. We went and waited and waited. It was KILLING. I was really nervous cause I wanted this company badly. Around 7:15 all of us were ushered into a room and the announcement started. They had picked on 40 of us. The names were been called out. Amongst closed one’s Surd’s was the first name to be called out. I am very HAPPY that I have got company in the company!!! :-) Then I realize that the list was nearing its end and my name was not yet called out. Mentally, I started to figure out which company to sit for next when suddenly I heard the name Mr. Prashant Chaturvedi. There was a scream of relief from Amisha, Bhanjee and Surd. I myself could not believe it. It was a CLOSE SHAVE.

Then the congratulations started all around. My first reaction was of RELIEF, nothing else. I called up my place and broke the news to Jhabs, and then Maate. I guess they were taken by surprise!! Any ways tried telling Mom the name of the company but I am sure she did not under stand. Jhabs tells me that now Maate has memorized it. :-) Then called up Papa who had gone to Kalighat, it been a Saturday. Broke the news to him at precisely the moment when he was in front of Kaliji’s Moorti. I knew Pa was HAPPY. Then remembered my grandfather again. I knew he would have been proud of me. Called up Sis. She was taken by shock. She was very pleasantly surprised. She kept on asking me to repeat it. :-) Sis rocks!! Then came the number of my close friends. Broke the news to Chocho, Shekhar, Sweta and Topi. Topi took another full interview about the profile and pay. Only after been satisfied did she congratulate me. In the mean time we had a pastry party with Pokee, Dattu and Jhalak joining us. All in all I was VERY RELIEVED when I slept that night. It sunk in the next morning when I realized that I no longer had to worry about which company is going to visit our campus and what is the Sensex closing or Rupee closing. In a way since then I have become a FREE man. No more tensions. LIFE ROCKS!!!!

I have to say that it is very important to enjoy your close one’s success. The number of people who have been genuinely happy for me has been very heartening and satisfying. This should also prove a thing or two to certain people. There has been an incident wherein a particular joker’s ego has been badly hurt. I am happy for that is one thing I really wanted to do. Life has been a party since that day. I have been collecting and watching movies like crazy while also finding the time to finish off a book. That seems to be the itinerary for this semester. In that case I am in for a major BALL and a GALA time. Chow.

Andrew Symonds is AWESOME…

2007-10-14T22:46:00.000-07:00

Yesterday afternoon I had the privilege to enjoy my Sunday by watching a cricket matches after ages. Although India did not win, I still had a good time. For starters, Andrew Symonds (Symmo) was DAMN GOOD. His innings was picture perfect and a lesson in how to pace your innings in India. That guy has BRUTE power, AWESOME timing, is a more than handy batsman and BLOODY HELL a BRILLIANT fielder. That’s what you call a complete package for ODI’s and now T20 cricket. Anyone who saw his six over long on off Murali Kartik (who had his tail up, after a superb opening spell) has to admire the guy. It was an effortless shot that landed on top of the stadium roof and the ball eventually rolled out of the ground. That HAS to demoralize the bowler. Poor Kartik, I felt for him, trying to make a comeback. Another shot was the one with which he reached his century. That was CLASS. The glide would have made even Sachin proud. What stood out about these two shots was the timing and grace. They were effortless shots. Knowing the kind of brute power Symmo can generate, it came as a surprise. I have seen him take on Shoab Akhter, consistently bowling at over 90 mph. That was a SIGHT. He swatted Akhter over the midwicket fence and into the stands without any semblance of timing. That too, at the MCG. It was a HUGE hit. He did it thrice to Akhter. It was brilliant.

Another instance that comes into mind is during the 1999 World Cup. A lot has been said about his 143 not out which led to an Aussie victory. But the best part of the innings was towards the end when he took on Waqar Younis. It was the end of the innings and he was hitting the bowl to all parts. Then, Waqar came and bowled a beamer for which he apologized immediately with a big grin on his face. Symmo was obviously not impressed!!! The next ball was followed by a short ball with Waqar saying quite a lot to the batsman. You could make out Symmo was getting worked up. Watching it live, I thought to myself, he is gonna get out. Next ball, another beamer. Symmo ducked out in the nick of time. He immediately got up and started charging over to Waqar with a look that said he is going to bash him up. He was all set to carry out this noble deed (I am sure loads of people would have been happy) but the umpire and the non striker intervened and saved Waqar. I thought that the Pakistan captain should step in and then realized Waqar was himself the captain!!!! Anyways the matter was sorted amicably and Mr. Symonds response was to hit Waqar for two consecutive sixes after that. Thank god that was the end of Waqar’s spell!!!

And Mr. Symonds kee fielding ke to kya kehne. He has to be the BEST all round fielder I have ever seen. His fielding in the circle is too good, his catching is brilliant, his throws from the deep are superb and overall he is a MIND BLOWING fielder. You would have realized by now that I am a BIG Symonds fan.

Another heartning thing about yesterdays match was Utthappa’s innings. That guy is GOOD. He has the right attitude. I am convinced; that he along with Yuvraj will form the backbone of India’s batting in the years to come. I guess I am sounding like one of those old cricket commentators. But I LOVE watching cricket and I can’t help passing comments like any other genuine cricket lover!!! At least I do not BUG/BORE people by telling them stories, you have the discretion to read it if you want to… chowwwwwwwww guys…

I ROCK!!!!

2007-08-31T03:40:00.000-07:00

I have finally succeeded in doing something which even IT champions were not able to achieve. I have, yes, believe it or not, managed to install INTERNET EXPLORER 7 on my system. You will understand the significance of it after you know the fact that I have been trying this feat for the past 2 months now!!! I even approached Paukee and Deepa as a last resort (they are self proclaimed IT champs, I have my doubts). To think I was about to offer them jobs as my IT guys in my future company!!!!!!!! I just took the 1st cost cutting measure for my company. This would enhance the efficiency level of the organization, even before it is formed!!!!!!!!!! As I say, I ROCK!!!!!This also proves that perseverance pays. I have learnt so many lessons from this simple installation procedure. Hope you also learn something.

Me reading Harry Potter’s latest book right now... It is damn good. Since, I have issued it I have been hooked on to it. Have not been having classes also. And no new movies also. So every thing pointed towards me reading the book. I guess Dumbledore wants me to read the book… :-)

Chalo chow… lemme go and read about India’s BRILLIANT performance in yesterday match on my new browser. I will sign off by saying I am VERY VERY HAPPY… Jai Mata Di…

I am tana tan…..

2007-08-26T00:16:00.000-07:00

Yesterday evening, the city of Hyderabad was rocked by two blasts in the heart of the city. For people in Kolkata, one of the blasts was in an area similar to the one in Burrabazar. So you can imagine it must have been bad. Since then I have been flooded by frantic phone calls and messages from relatives and friends alike. Lemme assure you that I am fine and in one piece. For once, I was glad that our campus is so FAR from the city, out of harm’s way. Although it was a Saturday and loads of students go to the city, no casualties have been reported from our college (we have had our fair share of that). Thank God.

The positive aspect to come out from the whole blast thing (if there can be a positive!!) was the number of people who called up and were worried about me. It made me feel really nice. There was genuine concern on show. I got calls from people who never call me normally (but, this was abnormal!!!). THANK YOU guys… really mean it.

Had a chat with Tushar yesterday. It was his birthday. We were remembering the old times when we used to freak out in Kolkata. Somehow, the whole memory of landing up at Tushar’s place unannounced to surprise him came back. I guess it was 2 years back. We had thought of surprising him on his birthday. But when we reached there, we were the ones who were surprised. There was LOCK on the gate of Mr. Kataria’s house. On further investigation we found that the bugger was sitting in his office. It took a lot of arm twisting tactics on out part to convince him to come back on time so we could celebrate his birthday. The Gujju that he is, he made all conscious efforts to come as late as possible and save his cash and ass (I don’t know which one he treasures more!! Will ask him the next time). But we were also besharam and waited for him. All in all had a gala time that day. Remember that time we sent anonymous flowers to Tushar. That was a CLASSIC.

Yesterday I spoke also spoke to sis. Felt REALLY REALLY nice. I actually enjoy talking to her. She is one person I can be normal with. No pretence, nothing. She also does understand me. She has an internet connection now, so hope to save money and voice chat with her. Anyways got to go now. Else, I will not get any lunch to eat (it hardly makes a difference, but, still basic sustenance needs). Chow…..

Kumble’s century!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-08-11T07:29:00.000-07:00

If there is one thing that I thought I will never see, it was a century by India’s seasoned campaigner, old warhorse, committed, warrior, competitor, aggressive (and blah, blah and more blah, Sunil Gavaskar can go on and on!!), Anil Kumble. It was a SIGHT. Just the way in which he reached his century was paisa wasool. :) But, we must give credit where it is due. Hate to say it, but I guess he batted well. I was damn lucky not to see his innings!!!!

Anyways, have been having a very boring time recently. Not much to do in terms of projects and assignments. Have lost the will to study hard in semester-III, since the time I have known that the grades will not be considered for placements.

PLACEMENTS…. Another great mystery at ICFAI, Hyderabad. I guess this would be the last and biggest faux paus by ICFAI. As they say, save the best for the last!!! I hope to do well. Will have to leverage my CFA to get a decent job and profile. Let’s hope I have not forgotten all the fundas accumulated over the years. I know I need to oil myself. A bit, nope, a lot of rust has accumulated. So, will have to do quite a lot before the placement season starts. Have to ensure that I hit the ground running. Lets hope for the best and pray that I make my loved ones and more importantly myself proud. About time my luck changed at ICFAI, Hyderabad. I think Lady luck is cheesed off with me cause I have been courting my first and only love, NINEE…. :) Come on baby, I love you too… :)

Have been going to the city a lot this semester leading to huge outflows of cash. The revenue has not yet come in and hence, the NPV of the project is negative. As a result my bank balance has taken a major hit. Got a reprimand from papa cause my cash and cash equivalents had fallen to an all time low. Hence, RBI (mere pyare pyare papa) had to intervene to control the liquidity problem. Papa rocks……

Some people at the campus have started behaving WEIRDLY for no rhyme and reason. The nautankee refuses to die down. I guess someone is providing fuel to the fire. But the amazing thing is people are still listening to other asses around them. As Jesus Christ so famously said, “you place someone on your shoulder and when that someone pees, it stinks and creates problems”. Me not trying to be cheap, that’s a fact. Another analogy just came up but I guess it would be a bit SOOGLA (as Deepa would say!!!). Did you know that soogla means gross???????? So bunk it. All I will say is that time always comes a full circle. Let’s wait and watch. Its gonna be good fun. Chalo abhi lemme go. Am sitting in a damn SCREWED up IBFS lecture on a Saturday evening. You can gauge the interest level by the fact that even the professor has dozed off. So much for a gala weekend!!!!!!

P.S : I must admit you guys have a lot of patience to read my crappy blogs. Thank you. I mean it.
Still can’t believe, Kumble scored a century!!!!!!!!!!!

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2007-08-04T23:24:00.000-07:00

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It’s been ages!!!!!!!!!!

2007-07-29T08:22:00.000-07:00

It feels like it’s been so many days since I have blogged. Was not very particularly caught up with anything but still did not find the time to blog. In fact, if anything I should be doing my security analysis project right now. But just don’t feel like doing it. I know I should but I just can’t. :( It’s a Sunday and guess how I started my day. I woke up early in the morning cause I had an interview. The college has FINALLY done something good to prepare us for placements!!!! Anyways, had breakfast early, i.e. at 8:30. It’s early by my standards. Had a good breakfast after ages.. Luckily found the toaster empty and had the privilege of putting butter myself and then having it.. It was a satisfactory feeling. Then rushed back to my room to iron a pair of trousers and shirt. By meticulous planning and implementation of the same (now I am talking like an MBA student :)) I managed to reach my destination on time. Had to wait for the interview to start and in the meantime I got a call from home. Everyone is assembling in kolkata nowadays for a family function. They even have a Ramayan been planned. That is when I miss home the most. :( But, its ok.. In the midst of all this I had forgotten that I have an interview for which I had not prepared at all. My name was called and that brought me back to ICFAI, Hyderabad. Only when I was waiting outside the room that I realized that I was HOPELESSLY out of touch with the whole interview thing. It’s been some time since I had sat down for an interview. I must admit I was a bit anxious about how it would go. But my nerves settled down once I was inside the room. Then I had a GALA time. Thoroughly enjoyed myself and that led to me receiving a good feedback. It only confirmed my faith in my own skills. I am not that bad as I think myself to be. Also confirms my own theory that SPONTANIETY ROCKS.. You just cannot prepare for an interview. As I so famously said, “interview is a process of self discovery”. :)

After came the best part of the day. My good deed of the day (in fact, I guess my good deed in AGES. :)). Dattu and I went to donate blood. It was a nice feeling. People in my campus are chickening out with the excuse that the blood is not made available to the needy and sold away. My point is even if it is sold, someone is still able to use it!!!!! Both Dattu and me have very strong views on this and wanted the whole issue to be cleared. So, while registering for the process, I started firing away questions at the poor female who was doing my registration. The poor female had no clue about where the blood would go. I was giving her a good piece of my mind when someone told me she was our junior and not from the blood bank. Still I enjoyed it. :). Then ultimately got to the process of donating blood. Must say it is a very NICE feeling.

All this time I was still in my formals. I came to the conclusion that I do not wear enough of formal clothes by the amount of comments I got. Everyone was surprised that I was wearing formals.. Big deal guys!!!! I guess it was due to the fact that I was looking decent for a change!!!! One of my female friends even told me that I am looking good. She is such a NICE girl. :)

Since then I have just been procrastinating (my English teacher Ms. Havisham would be proud of me!!!). I know I should sit down with my project but just don’t feel like. In the evening my partner in crime (Dattu) and me went on the terrace. The view was amazing from there. We also went a step further by climbing atop the water tunkies on the terrace. So effectively we were on the 8th floor. The view was MIND BLOWING from there. Will go there more often from now.. Peaceful place, which is a rarity in the campus. After that am writing right now and don’t know what I will do next. Let’s see. I guess will have to study a bit. :( till then the others would also have arrived. Chow.. Hope to write again soon.

I have been told that I write very philosophical stuff. So am trying to change!!!!! I am very happy out here, contrary to the impression people get after reading my blogs. :)

Just for the heck of it…

2007-07-03T20:14:00.000-07:00

Ya hoooo…. I finally got hold of Harry Potter’s 6th (or is it 5th??) book... It is the half blooded prince. I luckily tumbled on it at 23:00 hours in the library. I pounced on it and had to hide it so that I could have it issued the next day (they don’t issue books in the night!!). But, I still managed to read 30 odd pages of the book. While reading I realized I had missed one book in between. The link was missing. Rounded off an awesome evening for me. Don’t worry I will take you through it. [:)]

After a perfectly lethargic and weird Sunday, I was looking forward to starting off the week in a better fashion. But, guess what?? That was not to be. I woke up in the morning not feeling too great about life. Had a pathetic breakfast. They served us upma which was looking like shit to me (I am not kidding!!). During my FILLING breakfast, I was wondering what to do the whole day long. I had two lectures in the day. One was IFT and the other one MCIS. I had the noble intention of studying some IFT. But my progress to the library was hampered by me trying to find a carpenter to fix up the latch in my room (two nights before I had woken up in the morning to the WONDERFULL sight of my room’s door wide open!!). I did not find the carpenter cause he was busy in the girls hostel for the past three days (I don’t blame him!! [:)]). Anyways reached the library and tried reading Business Line (screwed up paper!!). Felt very hungry and went down but bumped into the IT people of our college. They took an hour to fix up a small problem with my laptop. Had my lunch at 14:30 hours when half the food was finished (hardly made a difference since the one left was also worth leaving!!).

Then went back to my room and thank god had a good sleep for an hour and a half. I was feeling very ashamed of myself, so, went down to attend the last lecture. Felt a bit better. After that had tea and went to the mandir. Somehow, I was still not feeling too great. I went to the library to study anything I could get hold off. But, again god was with me. I did not find the valuation book I wanted to read. Still, somehow managed to read some decent articles. Then, went for my dinner. Surd had fever and a severe headache. So took her to the doctor. That is when things started getting better. While the doctor was checking her temperature, she had a look on her face which reminded me off a child HAPPILY sucking lollipop. Then the expression changed into that of a doper having marijuana!!! [:)] She had a very content look on her face. After that, I found the Harry Potter (I told you my luck was changing!!). Was on my way to the hostel when I met this dude who has a good collection of movies. Took some movies from him and at 00:30 hours settled down to watch Kill Bill-I. One AWESOME movie. I had heard a lot about the movie and it lived up to the hype. After that things have been better. Had a relatively better Tuesday. Right now, I am sitting in a really STUPID MCIS lecture. Had nothing better to do. So, I am writing.

I spoke to Meeta today. She will be married off in three days. Scary thought!!!!! I hope she has a VERY HAPPY marital life. Wish her all the best. People in the class are giving me really ugly stares. They think I am doing some project!!! So got to go before I am bashed up. Till the next time, CHOW… [:)]

What the heck???????????

2007-06-22T07:29:00.000-07:00

I don’t know how to start. I am somehow feeling a bit weird. I don’t know why this strange feeling of …... I don’t know what has engulfed me suddenly. We had a torrential downpour out here in the evening. It was raining cats and dogs from around 19:00 to 21:00 hours. The rain was awesome. The worst part was I could not enjoy it. I was chatting to this friend of mine who is in Manila. I had not heard from him since AGES!! We chatted and tried for a voice chat. But the elements were against us. In the end we just decided to chat. But that was not to be. Our AMAZING, MIND-BLOWING internet connection is so sexy that I don’t have words to express it (good for it, cause the only words which would come would be abuses!!). We tried chatting for an hour but, finally had to give up when the connection got lost and did not return. I opened my balcony with the thought that I would enjoy the rain, but it was water-logged. I tried standing on the passage, but even that was not possible. It was raining that hard. Ultimately around 9’ o clock we decided to go down for dinner. That’s when the best part of the whole day came. I absolutely am anti-umbrellas and stood by my beliefs in trying times also.[:)]. I walked it down from the hostel to the mess. It’s not a huge distance but I still managed to get wet. It felt REALLY REALLY nice. I was still not satisfied. I wanted to get DRENCHED (I know it sounds weird, but I really wanted to!!). An opportunity presented itself in the form of Surf. No, not the surf excel wala surf, but a female whom we call surf (I know she doesn’t like it and one of this days I am in for a major panga). The poor female had no umbrella and wanted to go back to the girl’s hostel. The chivalrous gentlemen inside me woke up and I offered to drop her back with a borrowed umbrella. Now comes the saddest part. [:(]. After dropping her off I closed the umbrella with only one thought in my head, I WANNA GET WET. But, someone there is someone up there just cannot see me happy. Can you believe it, it stopped raining!!! Bloody hell, LIFE SUCKS. When I returned to the mess the rotis were finished. You can make out I must have been very happy!!!

I don’t know what effect Mother Nature has on me. She is very fascinating. I can spend hours and hours doing nothing but just soaking in an amazing sunset, or the shiny stars, or just looking at the rain or enjoying the lovely breeze. It has a very strange effect on me. I tend to go very quite and somehow philosophical and serious. This happens especially at heights. Even the 7th floor terrace of our hostel has that effect. I guess during such times I give the impression that my mood is off. But that is not the case. I guess I just want and enjoy the moment and save it in my hard disk. There are LOADS of such moments saved up there. I actually do remember them quite frequently. End of it all I guess it is just FASCINATING. I don’t know, very hard to explain.

Then I spoke to this really close friend of mine. Whenever I talk to her, we don’t seem to talk enough. Every time we hang up, there is a feeling that we should talk more. But, ye harjai duniya!!! Jokes apart, I really do enjoy it. After what has happened in the recent past, we needed a casual sort of a chat. She told me that I have changed. She could not elaborate further cause her mom was around. I hope it’s a change for the better. Others have also told me the same thing. I don’t think that’s true. I am still the same old me. Maybe I have gone more serious. I don’t know. Anything it is, I hope it’s a change for the better.

Also spoke to this friend of mine who has got married. Was looking forward to talking to her and when I actually did, it turned out to be an anti-climax. The poor female had her in laws around her and was not able to talk freely. She was somehow very formal. [:)]. But, still, at least I spoke to her. She appeared happy (touch wood). But I still wanna talk to her when she is free and can be herself. Let’s see.

Then there is this friend of mine who has fits of weird behavior. I guess it’s her mood swings. On certain days she is fine and on other she is not. The recent phase of hers has been marred by her WEIRD behavior. I don’t know what is it??? I normally ignore her weirdo moods but, there is a limit to things. I don’t know what I must do to stop this crap. I have tried, but a faux paus never fails to happen. I know even she is trying hard. Let’s see how it works out. I hope good sense prevails and things go back to normal.

The rain has stopped now. But, it has left its mark behind. The whole campus is water-logged. Me still not sleepy. I guess I will try and post this blog tonight itself (trust me it’s gonna be tough!!). After that I will try reading a John Grisham I had issued from the library. It’s very BORING. Sleep is a long way off. Anyways, good night and take care. Chow.

P.S: I hope you guys like the new look of my blog. I must admit I LOVE it!!!!

Life rocks...

2007-06-17T00:11:00.000-07:00

ya hooooooooooooooooooooooo... i have finally managed to get a new look on my blog...looks good to me.... wat do u think???? apart from that its a sunday(i forgot to mention a BORING sunday)... gotto go now.... surd is hungry and if i dont go she will eat me alive!!!!! chow... should write something on monday or tuesday..that is when the most boring lectures are!!!!!

I AM BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-06-12T12:52:00.001-07:00

Hieee everybody….. thoughtfullthoughts are back after a 3 month sabbatical. For the past three months yours truly was in mera gaon mera des, aamaar Kolkata. My stay in cal started off on a happy note. I had the pleasure of having home made food….trust me, its DIVINE!!!!!!! Apart from that I was also really happy about the fact that I was at home at a time when my presence was required at home. My not been there could have had complicated matters. But thankfully that did not happen. I am really really happy about that.

My stay in cal was also very TORTUROUS. For one whole bloody month, I was down with pox. I assure it was bad, bordering on been HORRIBLE at times. In the first three days, I could not watch TV, read books. All I used to do the whole day long was listen to music on my laptop or just lie down on the bed. I did not have the caliber to do anything else. Even drinking water used to take a lot of effort. I have never felt anything that bad. To make matters worse, Jhabs (that’s behna moreee, my sister) and Nishu (bhai mora) also got the pox from me. I actually felt very bad about that.  

My summer training in cal was another screwed up affair. I was doing my internship at ICICI Direct.com (remember, WE BRING GOOD THINGS TO LIFE). Well, nothing good happened in my life!!!!!!!!! I had a really cartoon female as my industry guide. She was supposed to guide me regarding the nitty-gritty’s of finance and marketing. All she taught me in the three months was how to SHOUT your HEAD OFF for no rhyme and reason. Oh, and I also learnt that you ought to have a damn big ego which needs constant massaging if you are in a high post. My faculty guide was another cartoon network. All he wanted was us to go and sit in front of him and hear his gyan. He really screwed my happiness!!!! But, thank god it’s over…..

Then another aspect in which I was not too be disappointed was that I had thought I would freak out in cal. But, as usual that was not to be. I realized going back home for three months is different from going back for 7-10 days. I guess your importance tends to diminish. Guess what, I even went for a movie alone!!!!!! I was that disgusted with life.

But the good part was also meeting up Shekhar, my old friend. We had met after a lot of time and it felt nice to catch up on old times. We had a couple off adda sessions over chai( I personally think it should be our national drink. I guess I will write to manmohan singh about this.  ). Another high point was going to Tarkeswar in a car. It’s a very sacred temple for Shiv jee (Bhole baba). It was AWESOME fun. It was a 146 kilometre journey with a SEXY road.

Another major thing happened while I was in cal. I don’t know whether that “thing” is good or bad??????? All I know it made me more self-reliant than I was previously. It was an experience which I will never forget in my life. I hope no one has to go through what I went through. For the first time in my life, I felt LONELY. It was PATHETIC. Why does it happen that when you want something damn badly, you don’t get it??? There could be people who disagree on this, but it always happens with me!!!!!! But, I guess it has made me a stronger person. There was only one person in this world who could have made me realize “NOT TO EXPECT ANYTHING FROM ANYONE”. That person did exactly that. I have learnt my lesson in a very hard way. I hope things improve, but, I have my doubts. Somehow, it is always messed up!!!!!!

One of my closest friend got married off. The worst part was that I could not attend her wedding. I never thought that was possible, but, I guess it does not always work out the way you want it to. I know she needed me there, but, I could do nothing. When I met her for the last time before she was leaving, I felt very weird. I guess I felt how a father feels when he marries of his daughter (it might sound clichéd and filmy). It is not that weird once you understand the fact that she was a friend, came very close to becoming a bhabhi, a younger sister, a pet whom I could pamper, and finally a friend to whom I could open up to. I am REALLY REALLY SORRY babes. Miss talking to you Take care.

Finally, in this semester I have decided to be blog mere regularly than before. That is due to the fact that I have a schedule in which I have loads of spare time. I have also started subscribing for Economic Times, a bible for any finance student. I HOPE to read it on a constant basis. Let’s see, I have my fingers crossed!!!!! Hope you guys read this... Chow, till the next time which should be pretty soon.

IT AINT NO HAPPENING MAN!!!!

2007-06-12T12:06:00.000-07:00

“Lonely, I am so lonely…”-This song by Akon keeps coming back to my mind. I had a big fight with one of my best friends. I guess it was bound to happen. Things had been boiling for a week or so and one of us was bound to overreact. Maybe I overreacted, I don’t know. I was sick and tired of been taken for granted. As in, I don’t mind been taken for granted by close friends, but there is a limit to things. I don’t have an ego, but I certainly do have self respect. I very rarely get into fights with friends. I always avoid them. But this is one deadlock I am not breaking. This time around the other party has to take the initiative. If I make a mistake, then it normally takes me half an hour maximum to realize my mistake. If I still don’t, then I am damn sure I am not wrong. Let’s see what happens……

One positive to have come out of the whole thing is that I have learnt how to handle things alone. I used to do it before also, but I always had this thing that my friends would be there for me. But very SADLY, I have been made to realize that NOPE, you cannot expect things, even from the closest of your friends. Now, it has finally STUCK that I have got to fight my own battles single handedly. Can’t rely on anyone. All this has made me devise a theory which says-“when you want something very badly, chances are, you will not get it!!!”… Weird but true.

I know the whole issue can be talked out. There has been a problem/ mistake from both sides. But, strangely, I don’t even feel like talking. It was not like this before. After an argument, both of us itched to talk to each other. But, nowadays, talking requires a great deal of effort. I guess we have to make an effort to call each other and then also talking normally is difficult. I have no clue why this is happening???????? I don’t think that the distance came from my side. In fact, I have always tried hard to stay in touch. God knows that and he also knows how much this hurts. When you expect something from your close ones and it does not materialize, bloody hell it HURTS… that’s why, DON’T EXPECT THINGS FROM ANYBODY. I hope we talk and sort it out. I hope things return back to normal, as they were... I can only pray………

I DON’T KNOW WHATS HAPPENING????

2007-01-13T03:54:00.000-08:00

I am feeling very weird. I get the impression no one understands me. I cannot think of a single name who could be said to understand why what I am doing is not wrong (it might not necessarily be correct). I am been misunderstood by one and all. According to many people, there is no justification in what I do. I have lost it. My relatives think that I am been very "high and mighty” and am very choosy about what I want. I have heard the phrase “beggars can’t be choosers” quite a lot over the past few days. Suddenly I have become a high flier. My friends think that there is only one side to my personality. If I am with them I always ought to kid around. The serious side of me should never come forth. If by misfortune that part of me surfaces then I am supposed to deal with it all alone. When I am ‘NORMAL’ I am given the opportunity to be back with them. We are back on square one. The same old time pass has to continue. The funda is not to take me seriously. COME ON GUYS, there is another side of me which is not always there for everyone to see. At times it just comes up. Even I can’t do anything about it. Even I have ambitions. They might be less in comparison to others but they are there. The people’s perception about me is not correct. I have lent my shoulder to loads of people loads of time. I don’t wanna show of. But I have been there for people without them asking for it. Now, when I need support there is no one, ABSOLUTELY NO ONE. A very sorry state of affairs. I know I will be fine in due course of time. But this is feeling of LONELINESS rankles me a lot. Will it ever go away??? Will I ever have a friend/ partner who would understand me? With whom I would not need to say things. The person would just understand. Will someone ever play that role with me?? There were people who came close to it, but now they are not there. Things have changed. There is no one. Is it that people are turning a blind eye towards me? Are they taking me for granted?? Why? This should not happen. I am hoping from the bottom of my heart that things improve. Pray for me.

One of my friends always tells me not expect things from anyone. I have never agreed to her. I always used to say that we can expect stuff from our close ones. But, today I hat to say this, I guess she is right. I will try not to expect anything from anyone in the future. It’s going to be really tough.

The Nocturnal Me!!

2007-01-05T13:55:00.000-08:00

Its 03:00 hours (that means three in the morning!!). I don’t know why I am writing this. But it rounds off a perfect day of planning and implementation (a very imp. HR function :)) for me. I dozed off in the evening with the intention of sleeping till nine, having dinner and then STUDY.. But at 6:30PM (tell me, is it morning or evening???) my sleep was woken by some shouting on the floor below. That particular floor is blessed with a TV set. I thought may be India (Sourav Ganguly in particular) must be playing well. I rushed down to be greeted by the dismal sight of India’s wicket tumbling like… (Cant think of a good metaphor!!). Anyways saw the match and went for my dinner at 9:00 PM (Trust me I am enjoying this!!). for a change the dinner was good and for the first time in the grand history of ICFAI Business School, Prashant Chaturvedi (Enrollment No. 06BS-2353) had three, yes, I am not kidding, THREE rotis. Man, I ROCK!!! Then with the noble intention of studying, armed with my Business Research Method (BRM) books I headed for the war front, the LIBRARY. (bas maa ke aashirwad kee kamee thee!!). I collected The Times Of India, The Hindu and sat down to read the paper. I thought I would catch up on world news (actually meaning cricket news. You have to agree I am honest.) and then conquer BRM. But that was not to be. One of my friends from Calcutta called up. After having a short chat with him (15 min to be precise) I went back to the warfront. After catching up on world news :). I opened my BRM book. Suddenly I started feeling very tired. So, I ended up reading John Wright’s Indian Summers (a really NICE book) for an hour and a half. I left the library at 00:00 hrs. (Guess!!). I came back to my room with the thought of dozing away to glory. But that was not to be. I dropped into Pokee and Dattu’s room (if it can be called that!!) and saw that they were watching Lage Raho Munna Bhai. Shamefull as it may appear, but I had not seen the movie. So ended up watching the movie (which is really EXCELLENT). Came back to my room at 2:15 AM. My room resembled a dhobi ghat. So, tidied up and kept all my dried and washed clothes in the cupboard. Right now there is a birthday party going on the floor below. All the idiots are drunk and providing a surround sound effect to the already LOUD music. I just felt like writing.

I spoke to Jhabs today right after dinner. She was telling me things happening in Calcutta. Things which should not be happening. People are living in a world which is very superficial. Full of materialism and no concrete things. No intangibles feelings or relationships to fall back on. We are been FORCED to give ROYAL BALLS to people we don’t want them. But there is a limit to everything. A line has to be drawn somewhere. At times the youngsters have to take on the mantle. The decisions our elders take are not always justified. They have to take decisions with loads of baggage. So it leads to biased thinking. But its ok. I am CONFIDENT AND SURE that what we are doing is correct. So no load from my side. Abhi I have gotta go. Have the first lecture tomorrow morning. I will try sleeping amongst all the peace been disrupted by the song Beede Jalayeele (I must admit a very catchy song!!). Good night.

I AM BORED!!!!! :( :(

2006-12-28T12:23:00.000-08:00

Right now, I am sitting in an ESM lecture, been forced to watch a very BORING presentation on CRM (I am not sure bout the topic!!). My prof. caught me watching “Friends” on my laptop. I was sitting very nicely in the last row, right behind the prof. I put on my headphone, ignorant of things around me. I was watching this real sexy episode and did not realize that the voice was been heard around me. In due course of time, even the prof. heard it and gave me a real ugly STARE!!! I had no option but to shut down my laptop. I guess the faculty just cannot see us happy!! My first lecture of the day was another classic. There were only 20 odd students in the class (out of 70) and around 15 of us could barely keep our eyes open Our poor teacher who is majorly FRUSTRATED with life and appears to be on the verge of breaking down and committing suicide, finally lost her cool and started shouting her head off. What pissed her off was the fact that even all the shouting could not wake us from our slumber. We kept on sleeping with our eyes open (Trust me; it’s a tough things to do!!).. At times, I do pity her. She does have a tough job trying to teach us, that too at 9:15 in the morning.
Life is weird (yes… I am back to my philosophical self!! I pity who ever is reading this). All the people I know and am closely associated with are going through some panga or the other. One of my friends is torn between her ex- boyfriend, her “langotiya dost”, some new dude who has fallen for her and is professing his love for her, some colleagues friend hitting on her SHAMELESSLY. (Phew, quite a list). I hope somewhere in this crowd, I am also there. I hope she remembers me. Naa… I am sure she does. I know that when she talks to me, she is actually talking to herself. She is confused like crazy (and I used to think that I am the undisputed king. I have some competition!!). She is frustrated with her life. I am WORRIED bout her. I hope she survives this cause good times are just around the corner. After all, good things come in small packages.. :) :)
Two of my best friends are right now going through a break-up. The dude seems to have taken it quite well. He is consciously withdrawing into a shell. Things might look good on the surface, but they are not. The female is just not willing to accept the situation and move on. She is holding on to something which is no longer there. I hope things turn out well between them.
Then, there is another friend of mine, who is going through a commitment problem (reminds me of Chandler!!). Both the parties involved like each other but are not willing to commit. Sounds stupid to me. The whole funda beats me and is beyond my comprehension. When I heard about there case for the 1st time, I thought to myself that they would make a good “urbane couple”. But now, I am having my doubts. Hope things work out fine between them.
Aur ab meree baree. I have been made to realize that I am very casual. I agree to that. But I think I am on track to get decent marks this semester. I just cannot make people understand my point of view. Maybe that is due to the fact that I myself am CONFUSED!!. Don’t really know.
I just hope things work out well for all of us and we have a very happy new year. Its time things took a change for the better. I think all of us have had our fair share of bad luck. Now, we deserve something good in our life. When I say “I”, I mean all the people mentioned above and others about whom I have not spoken. Dua karo hamare upar se shanee kee dasha hat jaye. Till then, HAPPY NEW YEAR… :) :) :) :)

LIFE ROCKS(DOES IT??

2006-12-12T05:51:00.000-08:00

Tuesday, December 12th, 2006.. Economics lecture

Yesterday night was a very weird night for me!!! I had been waiting for something to happen and when it actually happened, I had mixed feelings. I did not know how to react. One part of me was happy on the occurrence of the event, but the other part was sad and confused. The event brought forward loads of emotions which were in the background for the past 20-25 days. The sad/confused portion took over the happy side of me. I hope the happy side fights back!!!!!!

But after ages yesterday, my mind was at peace. It was not as turbulent as it normally is. There were thoughts but not as weird as the ones I was having lately. Part-II of the episode is to be played out today. Let’s see how it works out. I am sure I will get over it and ultimately forgive the person. But somehow, “THINGS HAVE CHANGED” (I am just quoting someone). This time around the hurt and feeling of loneliness was amazingly high. It’s not easy to forgive this time around.

Anyways after everything that happened, I tried to study for a crappy eggjam. For 20 min. I was successful in concentrating. But after some time some bugger thought that he had come to a discotheque and started playing one really STUPID song from Dhoom-II again and again. It took all my patience to stop myself from shouting at him. Anyways after some time good sense prevailed. I was happy and tried studying again. But that was not to be… Providence was against me. There is this really DESPERATE couple at the campus who are making full use of the freedom of hostel life!!!! They put on a folk song (I think it was in Telugu, or was it Kannada???) and started exploring each other (Yes, think DIRTY!! They were doing exactly that). I had had enough and pushed off. I went to my room to see the WONDERFULL sight of my clothes drying for the past two days!! There was no place to sit. My room was MESSY with a capital M (That’s an understatement). Didn’t have the caliber to clean it up and just dozed off with the noble idea of reading something. All this was at 3 in the morning. Woke up at 8:30 and rushed for my lecture. Didn’t have the time to take a bath (anyways the water is FREEZING cold). At least god had some mercy and I had decent breakfast. Since then it’s been a DRAG. Am barely able to keep my eyes open. Have got a test in the next period. I am nicely prepared for it. As in, I am sitting amongst people who are like me and not studied a single word!! All set to make it an open book exam… J J lets see what happens. I must admit I have woken up now!! Even I am surprised.Chal fir see yaa. Shubh ratri, shabba khair and do take good care of yourself (I know KBC copied it from me and I am yet to receive any royalty. No wonder they are making so much of money!!). Finally, CHOW and I ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!

LIFE SUCKS (OR IS IT PEOPLE)???

2006-12-09T12:53:00.000-08:00

Why is it that people behave weirdly?????? I guess there is no answer to that. Everyone has a reason to do what they are doing. But why do they do things which are just not justified??? (I am asking a lot of questions!!!!!). There are people who are bloody smart. They are so smart that at times they over smart themselves. I personally HATE over smart people. At this age, people ought to be able to prioritize things. If you cannot do this properly, then it’s gonna create loads of problems in the future. There is no need to be a hypocrite. If you don’t have it then why the hell do you wanna show mock concern? If you are the “caring types” then where is your care?? I can digest stuff when it happens to me, but when it happens to my friends or close ones, certain things can just not be ignored. A line has to be drawn somewhere. You cannot always get away with CRAP. Someone has to put the foot down. I guess yesterday was the last straw. I have had enough. I don’t know why but even looking at certain peoples face is PISSING me off. I just can’t help it. I am not doing it consciously. Personally, I think if someone has to make a call between decency/courtesy and freaking out, I would opt for the former. Hell you can take out 15 min. from your partying and show some decency. It is going to do no one any harm. Either that or stop showing crappy and formal concern. F… OFF man… Gimme a break damnit. You want me to show chivalry towards your female friends. I don’t think I need to be taught chivalry, I am good at it. As the saying goes, “charity begins at home”. So do it yourself and then expect things from me. Till that time, go back to school and LEARN some basic manners. No one can become a hero by acting smart (sorry, over smart) in front of the opposite sex. If you want to be heroic that ways, then you are welcome. Be my guest. But mind you, that would imply not having anything concrete inside you. If these buggers are left alone in a one on one they would CHICKEN OUT… I can bet my ass on the fact these people are the biggest cowards on earth. All they can do is talk big and be politically correct. When it actually comes to doing things, a disease called “lack of balls” strikes them. I can go on and on about these assoles, but I think I have already wasted more than required time, thoughts on these people. I guess the best policy would be to just ignore them and move ahead. (But when someone is hospitalized, show some courtesy, in the name of god. Leave aside your personal differences. One small 5 min. visit can make a huge difference.)

Now, we move to the next huge question about “ME”. Trust me, I confuse myself. I am just not able to understand myself!!!! I have wonderful friends. Friends for the rest of my life. I agree to the fact that all of us are leading different lifestyles. But, is it so tough and hard to stay in touch. Am I asking for too much if I ask them to call or talk to me? Hell, am I wrong to expect things from my friends?? God knows how lonely I feel. I speak and kid around with a lot of people but there are times when I feel terribly lonely. I just wanna stay in touch with around 5 of my friends. That’s it. I understand things and strongly disagree with the notion that “people change”. No people don’t change, their “priorities” in life change. This is bound to happen over a period of time. I’ll take you through my list of friends.
One of my first friends was my sis (surprising!!!!). She is married off and there is a geographical (could be emotional) distance between us. No, it’s not an emotional distance. I still love and respect her like crazy!!!! But the distance might be creating a problem. It’s just not happening. We don’t talk for 15 days or something. But after 15-30 days, boy we talk!!!! I get the impression there is a huge amount of frustration out there. She is also lonely. There is so much which she can tell me. I desperately wanna help her out, but I am helpless.

Next, we move to this friend who is married. She is amazingly guilty of the fact that we are not able to speak properly. She has her own problems. I know she wants to open her heart to me, but again its just not happening. Too much of limitations. If we don’t talk for a month, it means something is majorly wrong. Just a superstition!!!!

There is another friend of mine who has created a distance, because I remind her of her ex-boyfriend. I respect that babes. :(. Another friend has gone apart while doing his Masters. We still share our good and bad things, but it’s not the same.

Now, I am bored of writing. So let me wind up. I will just like to say that even I want my dues (at times). Even I want people to take the initiative (read people=friends). It would be awesome if it happens. I am waiting and have my fingers crossed. It’s very true;”a friend in need is a friend indeed”.

I am yet to write about one of my best friends (could be the biggest problem of my life). Maybe next time. I have loads of boring lectures to follow…..

P.S: This was written on the 4th of December, 2006 in a very BORING BRM lecture..

We Suck!!!!!!!

2006-12-09T12:05:00.000-08:00

I have started attending classes today. I don’t know how it feels. As in, it’s a neutral sort of a thing. I don’t know how to react. Till yesterday, I was DISGUSTED with my “mature peers” at this so called B-school. I was actually ashamed to see how gullible, politically correct, stupid, double faced people could be. There was a female who had put up a notice outside the mess which said-“Dear god, save me, cause even if I die out here, none of my friends would help me”. This female was emotionally disturbed and asked me about what is going on, why have people started attending classes? One of the rare moments in my life, I was at a loss of words. I just couldn’t answer her. The worst part is that the notice was removed within half an hour of it been put up. I was there on Thursday when 2-3, so called students, who were supposedly fighting for the cause of Prabuddha & Jasmine had said that they are not gonna leave the Nagarjuna campus without been “beaten up”. We tried to dissuade them, talk sense into them, but to no avail. I was against the idea of staying back, cause it was sure to invite trouble. But, I sat down with them, cause we were not going to leave our friends behind. At that point of time, I was DUMB (STUPID) enough to think that this is just their way of reacting to the situation. It was only later that I realized that it was just a move on their part, which would give them cheap thrills and somehow glorify their image (give them something to boast about I guess). When the time came for the real test, standing up to the authorities, these were the first assholes to back out. They changed their stance,” strategy”, to counter the administration. They have the noble thought of attending classes and still “fight”. BALLS!!!!! I call it chickening out. End of the day they did not have the balls to fight it out. They were shit scared. Although they might appear and behave macho, they are chicken hearted. All they can do is go around in groups and try and bully others. I guess they thought the college would actually throw us out of our rooms, all 850 of us. Bullshit…. I am just curious to see how they would continue their so called fight. I wanna see for how long they can sustain it. My bet is not beyond Wednesday. In the end, I would just like to be a bit philosophical by quoting, “cometh the hour, cometh the man”. But there was no man. A very sorry state of affairs, if you consider strength of 600 boys.

P.S: This was written right after a great tragedy wherein 2 of my batchmates lost thier lives in an accident. May God bless thier souls. Dated: Nov.25th 2006.. Saturday